This past year has been somewhat of an awakening of my soul and a battle with my Spirit. I am still learning that I have a long way to go and a lot to learn, to be the person God has created me to be. I do not have all the answers and I still want to do what I want, but I am also remnded that my life is not always about me. That sucks (soul) sometimes! Knowing that my life is in the hands of one who has great plans for me and my family is refreshing (Spirit). I have a beautiful wife who has walked with me through every twist and turn, climb and nose dive, smooth and rough patch of my journey of faith. She has lived two lives…hers and mine. I love her because she trusts God with me! Plus she is HOT! I have 3 amazing daughters. Each one is so unique and yet love with the same passion! Laney is such an innocent, beautiful girl who wants to be loved and trusted. Janay is …well let’s just say I am curious to see what she and God will do together. Sophia, artist, srong convictions and a soft spirit. They have so much to learn, but they are teaching me how to love in different ways. Yes, sometimes I want to break my hand on their rear ends (soul), but they are being crafted into the likeness of Christ, just like me. I have the best friends in the world. Guys who really are closer than a brother. I do not deserve that kind of people in my life. They will listen to me rant and rage about what I think I am entitled too and then bring me back down to earth with hard questions and prayerful insight. Nate, Wyman, Don, Tommy, Dave; you guys rock!
Serving with a missions organisation as a support role has been more than insightful. In many ways I do not feel qualified to do some of the things that have been asked of me, so I have to trust that God is giving me the things that I need right now for this season of my life. I have always believed that God is always in the process of preparing you for the next part of your journey…I just have to make sure I am walking in step with Him and not trying to make things happen for my life. I know God has not called me to be comfortable, he has called me to be content. I guess the true test is when the things actually happen in life. God has been using this transitional time in the ministry to do some real deep things in my heart. It still feels pretty raw at times and I have to muster up the enrgy to go to the office (I hate office work), when I would much rather be OUT THERE serving in a different capacity. But I am thankful that all this is happening now when we are not in the thick of things on the field. God really does want to use us to bring Glory to His name and He will! Sometimes I have felt unworthy to be in minstry at all. I am thankful for the team around me who surrounds me with grace and mercy. We are all on this journey together and it has been healthy for me to have great leaders and a wonderful team here in Florence. We do not know what the future holds for the Sinsel family, but we do know that God is leading the charge, setting forth the battle plan and we are in training and gearing up for when the horn blows.
What has God been teaching me lately…It is not able title or position, it is about knowing the heart of the King. I am not a slave, I am a servant and friend; a son and a priest; an overcomer and a leader; a human and an heir. I hope that God will continue to birth humility in my life and that I will continue to ask questions instead of having all the answers. I look forward to 2011 with great anticipation of growing closer to my King and allowing my heart to beat as His for His people.
